After One Year..
There have been a lot of changes since the baby was born. Our family's daily routines have turned upside down. We moved from one state to a different time zone state. I stopped working. My wife started working to put bread on the table for the family. Our conversation topics changed. Our focus shifted to the baby more. Furniture arrangement changed.
Biggest change I experienced is my emotions. I started to appreciate the things that seemed unrelated to me for my entire life. I've never imagined walking into the baby's room in the morning would be such a happy moment. I put on the biggest smile on my face, even without any effort, with genuine joy. The joy comes from seeing our youngest family member. This has been going on for over a year now and I enjoy every morning that I get to do it.
Scary Obstacle
Danger is everywhere and it can visit your family at any time it desires. I keep my eyes on the baby for the most of the day except when she goes to sleep. We leave her in the crib in her room. We thought it is one of the safest places on earth for her.
Then it happens. She woke up after a nap. She rolls, sits, and stands. We didn't realize she tries to climb things too. She tried to climb the crib's rail. Fell. Fortunately, we had carpet and a cushy mat on the floor. She didn't get hurt. We ran in because she started to cry. I had to watch the baby cam's history. It was excruciating to even watch what happened.
Another incident happened last night. Our baby has a lot of heat. She gets hot very quick. So, we installed a cooling mat in the crib on the mattress. We secured it fast to the mattress, so it wouldn't come off on any side. But it did. For whatever the reason, one corner's rubber band came up. Our baby's arm got through the loop and the cooling mat ended up wrapping her face. She immediately started crying, so we were able to rescue quickly. If it was in the middle of the night, oh man God forbid, I don't even want to think about it.
I took every accessories off of the crib and got rid of them. I slept beside the crib all night. I had to wake up almost every hour to check if she was breathing okay. The morning came. I was awaken by our baby's voice. She was reaching her tiny hand out of the crib rail and trying to touch my face. What a relief to see her okay!
Emotions
I don't think I've ever cared for someone this much in my life. There are expectations for other people around my age to take care of themselves on their own. For my daughter, there could be none. She barely knows about this world yet. Now I feel like I understand those novels or movies about fatherly love. Until now, I thought I understood, but it was only an imagination.
Emotions play a big part in any relationships between two or more human beings. I like the fact that I can recognize these emotions and they come. I am also relieved that I can enjoy these emotions. I'm very happy that I can share these emotions with my own family, people closest to me.